i never seek (from entry 'every laugh a dream')

i never seek but find
and which i choose does not matter
i wonder that it never did
and i never knew
which way wrought the path of a new beginning
i stopped but that was a beginning again
and lest i seek the reason that brought me
a season not wanted
i will wish for winter once again
a farewell to the pleasantry of sun
a seclusion that forces the mistake to be a wonder
surely this course is the manner by which we win the life we sought
beyond the safety of these occasions
to find the room that never leaves a memory more permanent than its record